Katherine is a farmer. She always thought of herself as in control, someone who could plan for any situation. But when her son died after birth, that old her died too. "The world" she says, "is out of control, and any type of control that I experience is a figment of my imagination." But the river keeps flowing, the birds keep singing, and the garlic still needs to be harvested. How can it all exist at the same time? Here's her story. Mother is a Question is created by Julia Metzger-Traber and Natasha Haverty. Our editor is Rob Rosenthal. Original Music by Raky Sastri and Julia Read Executive Producer: Genevieve Sponsler Manager of The Big Questions Project: Courtney Fleurantin Coordinating Producer: Emmanuel Desarme Post-Production: Sandra Lopez-Monsalve Art by Richard Gray